Sigh

You know, I've tried to make PC work. I thought I'd be cut out for it, but it turns out I'm not. I don't feel like I should badger people to have shows, and that's what I feel like I'm doing.

When I ask the same person three times, and they say yes, but can't won't nail down a date, I'm not asking again.

And when I get a friend who's been invited several times to parties I've had at my house and she never shows up ... and yet she'll host one with another friend who just started, it pisses me the fuck off.

I get it. I'm obviously not cut out for it. So...I've got a show in September, one in November, and I'm just going to let people know that I'm not doing it anymore after the first of the year.

And I'll refer them to my upline director. Let her have them.

If we ever move, maybe I'll try it again.

Or maybe not.

Haven't decided.

What do you think I should do - how should I approach this to getting more shows? I feel stupid trying to follow the suggestions that others do. It's just not me to tell them that "this is such a great product for hosts!"

Grr. I'm just irritated about the whole damned thing.

Ms D