Thursday, January 31, 2013


Yanno, I'm starting to stress out here, just a bit. 

Mr Realist is sick. Again.

Here's what kills me--he never, ever got sick this many times prior to them putting him on the Metformin for diabetes.

I'm doing some research on metformin and immune system. So far, nothing I've read is good. Seems like it's depleting his B-12 levels, and that's what's causing him to catch colds so damned easily.

If any of you are diabetic and on metformin and are having the same issue, let me know what you're doing about it, please.

Ms D

PS--it doesn't help that we're on day 21 of no income for Mr Realist. Hopefully he hears back from unemployment today.

Monday, January 28, 2013


If you were able to read my Baby Daddy post a few weeks ago, feel privileged  I've since put it back to drafts - not because I'm ashamed of what I wrote, but for my own piece of mind, I've halted it.

I do miss my friend, but I miss my pupper nephew more. I want to snuggle with Foofer (not his real name) and have him waller all over me, letting me be the Foofer Whisperer. That dog lurves me.

I think I'm more hurt that I can't see him than me not being able to see her. The hurt that I can't see Foofer or Rulo hurts way more than not being able to see T.

Send up a few prayers for us, please. Mr Realist is still unemployed.

Ms D

Thursday, January 10, 2013


I like to think that God and I have a decent relationship. I may not be a church goer, but I do talk to Him.

Sometimes on a daily basis, sometimes every couple of weeks or so, and sometimes, it's just to say "I'd like to hear you more."

There are some days, like today, where I speak to Him from my heart because I need Him. I need Him to hold my hand and tell me that "I'll help you get through this."

I struggle with life sometimes. Work, bills, things I need to do vs things I want to do.

It's been a hard week so far, Dreamers. If you could offer up a prayer or some good karma or whatever, I would really appreciate it.

Ms D.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Complete Denial

It's going to be a long day...or I hope not. It's not that I'm dreading going in for this ultrasound, but I think it's fear of what they're going to find. 

I actually read over the test request that I have to take in, and I came across a word that I was  unsure of: 'menorrhagia'. I mean, I'd come across it prior to last night in Googling "heavy periods", but I really didn't pay much attention to it.

Holy shit, I wish I would have, and asked about it before now. I guess in the last six months, year or so, it's gotten worse.

(most of you who read my blog, however infrequently I post, are female--meaning you know what periods are like. If yours are normal and bang on, I kinda dislike you. :) )

I looked it up. Dear God, this was ridiculous: (per the Mayo Clinic)

The signs and symptoms of menorrhagia may include:
  • Soaking through one or more sanitary pads or tampons every hour for several consecutive hours (Done)
  • Needing to use double sanitary protection to control your menstrual flow (Done)
  • Needing to wake up to change sanitary protection during the night (Done)
  • Bleeding for a week or longer (Not normally, but I have)
  • Passing large blood clots with menstrual flow (Done)
  • Restricting daily activities due to heavy menstrual flow (Done)
  • Symptoms of anemia, such as tiredness, fatigue or shortness of breath (Done)
Well, fuckanolis. If you deal with this, please please please go see your doctor.

I'll let you know how this goes... :P

Ms D

Friday, January 4, 2013

Happy Friday

Or in the case of work, it's Fuck You Friday! Someone pisses you off? Respond with "Fuck You!" (seems to work in a room full of men--it's me and five guys). Makes me feel better!

Anyway, had to go for my yearly today. Blood pressure's still not good, so we're upping the dosage of my metoprolol.

We're also going to look into some sort of birth control for me -- either an iud or the depo shot. See, for the longest time, my cycles were bang-on 28 days. Within the last couple of years, however, they're becoming more and more sporadic. Like few days early...few days late...week early...week late...spotting around ovulation and through to period...spotting between's driving me absolutely batshit crazy.

So next week, I get to go in for a transvaginal ultrasound to see if I'm even a good candidate for an iud. She's also looking for any cysts or endometriosis (?) because I'm a super heavy. Like I'll go through a super tampon in about two hours, so I have to wear back up pads. I don't dare try the divacup (even though that would be awesome), because I'm sure I'd overrun that one. :P I'm glad Mr Realist is off that day so he can go with me.

I had to tell my boss why I'm going to be out for half a day next week while he's at a trade show. He's concerned for me - it's sweet. he's got a wife, so it's not like a period is foreign to him, right? :).

So, Mother Nature? Fuck you.

Ms D

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

'ello 2013!

Hello out there in interwebz land!

Immabout to make 2013 my year in every sense of the word -- I haven't had a soda since Monday night (partially because I have no pocket money...), and I'm working on some other things. 

I've recently been promoted to the Lead Agent for the Ladies of Z.O.D. (ZOD is a cosplay group that I'm in that stands for Zombification, Orientation, and Defense). Not a single one of us LoZ members are typical model-worthy, but we can kick some zombie ass! Now, because I'm now the Lead Agent, I'm going to start doing some girly things (which I don't normally) to help with the photoshoots and such--need to learn some new hairstyles and makeup applications.

In addition to Lead Agent, I'm also probably going to be heading up the DieselPunk division of LoZ -- Oma made me a steampunk-y skirt for Christmas, and I'm in the middle of designing/having some jewelry made for my costume. Anyone know where to get tiny glass vials or hourglasses or pocket watches that aren't going to cost an arm and a leg?

I'm going to start doing some yoga or stuff to help get myself healthier -- I can't keep eating fast foods all the time.

I'm going to do better on documenting books I've read/projects I'm working on/etc. I'll TRY to remember to post them here...of course, I may link them to my tumblr account as well (seems easier posting there with the pictures and such).

Mr Realist and I got a new camera for Christmas as our joint gift -- wasn't that expensive, either. I'll get to learn to play with it, take it to conventions and stuff. You know - the fun stuff!

Anyway, I'm rambling and have got to get back to work.

Sending loves, and be safe out there.

Ms D

2012 Library - Blown Away

In 2011 and again in 2012, I agreed to do Kristen's Book Challenge. In doing so, I said that I was going to read 75 books in 2012 (down just a bit from 100 in 2011).

I've been keeping track of them on my Kindle, so here goes (in no particular order):

Tawny Taylor - Private Games
Louise Wise - A Proper Charlie
Stephanie Havidad - A Previous Engagement
Naomi Kramer - Dead(ish)
Brenda Hiatt - Rogue's Honor

Alyssa Kress - Marriage by Mistake
Ann Bruce - Rules of Engagment
Lisa Mondello - Nothing But Trouble
Stacey Joey Netzel - Holding out for a Hero
Rhonda Nelson - Double Dare

Chrissy Olinger - My Boyfriend's Back
Stina Leicht - Of Blood and Honor
Juliette Sobanel - Kissed in Paris
Karen Cartwell - Foxy's Tale
Marianne Stephens - Second Sight Dating

? (can't read it) - For Love of Livvy
Kathleen Brooks - Bluegrass State of Mind
Judy Jarvis - Nanny Behaving Badly
Heather Horrocks (?) - Bah, Humbug!
Carol Grace - Mail-Order Millionaire

Rober DeCoteau - Zombie Tales
Chari ? - Haunted New York City
Rachel Corbett - A Killing In Iowa
Willow Cross - Haunted
? - Night Stalks the Mansion

CL Bevill - Bubba and the Dead Woman
Janice Thompson - Fools Rush In
Natasha ? - Quiet River
Rose Gordon - Intentions of the Earl
Debra Webb - Keeping Kennedy

MaryJanice Davidson - Me, Myself, and Why?
Karen Whiddon - Powerful Magic
Michael West - Poseidon's Children
Danny Gillan - Scratch
Shelli Stevens - Dangerous Ground

Leigh Michaels - The Mistress' House
Christy Hayes - Dodge the Bullet
Nancy ? - The Eighth Sea
Ameilia Grey - Never a Bride
Caroline Hanson - Bewitching the Warlock

Stephanie Rowe - Kiss At Your Own Risk
Ruby Storm - Keeper of the Spirit
Sarah Wood? - Daughter of Time
Julia Crane - Coexist
Marissa Frrar - Alone

Megg J? - Sleepers
Cheryl Bolen - Lady Sophia's Rescue
R. William Rogers - Toward a New Beginning
Jason Tesar - The Awakened
Deanna Chase - Haunted on Bourbon street

Vicki Lewis Thompson - Already Home
EA Beard - The Emerald City
Caitlyn Duffy - The Rock Star's Daughter
Pamela Glaze - Sweet Release
Elise Marion - My Ex-Wife's Wedding

Christie Craig - Divorced, Desperate, and Delicious
Mandy Rosco - The Princess' Dragon Lord
JR Rain - Dark Hourse
Jana DeLeon - Trouble in Mudbug
Kathleen Mor? - Child of the Mist

Darcia Helle - Enemies and Playmates
JR Rain - Moon Dance
Sharon Gillenwater - Jenna's Cowboy
Brenda Jackson - Irresistible Forces
The Incredible Story of Rookie Roller Derby Queen Cindy McCoy

Tony Bertauski - The Annihilation of Foreverland
Mary Campisi - A Family Affair
Kathryin Leve? - The Gorgon
Katri Cardew - Not Really Mr Smith
Chanda Hahn - UnEnchanted

Elizabeth Hunter - A Hidden Fire
Dahlia Lu - The Dark God's Brides
Chanda Hahn - Fiarest
Marta Perry - Hide in Plain Sight
Christine Merril - The Inconvenient Duchess

Darcy Br? - Her Wicked Ways
Lorena McCourtney - Invisible
Dominique Adair - Seducing Jane Porter
KJ Pullen - The Marriage Pact
Monique Martin - Out of Time

Zack Mason - Shift
Jennifer Skully - She's Gonna Be Mine
Tina Folsom - A Touch of Greek
? - Time Masters
HP Mallory - Fire Burn and Cauldron Bubble

Liliana Hart - Dane
Karen Kay - Lakota Surrender
Elisabeth Naughton - Stolen Fury
Abby Gaines - Married by Mistake
Christie Craig - Shut Up and Kiss Me

MD James - The Billionaire of Aspen Estates
Skye Warren - Beauty touched the Beast
Sable Jordan - Shaken n Stirred
Bob McElwain - Free to Die
Cynthia Wicklund - In the Garden of Temptation

Edie Clarke - Never Buried
ZL Arkadia - The Seventh Sister
GP Ching - Soulkeepers
Cynthia Leitich - Haunted Love
JR Barrett/Barnett - Beauty and the Feast

Elizabeth Marshall - When Fate Dictates
Jasinda Wilder - Big Girls Do It Wilder
Andrew E Kaufman - The Lion The Lamb The Hunted
Elaine Mercado - Grave's End
Lucinda Brant - Midnight Marriage

Jennifer St Giles - Mistress Trevelyan
Stephanie Bond - Voodoo or Die
Jennifer Coburn - The Queen Gene
Emma Lee-Potter - School Ties
Sandi Krawchenko ? - Ravenscraig

Vivi Andrews - The Ghost Exterminator: A Love Story
? - Princess Paisley
Barbara Freethy - A Secret Wish
? - Everflame
Deborah Cooke - Double Trouble

Harriet Sebutz - Lust and Honor
Penelope King - Witchy,  Witchy
Kristie Cook - Promise
Cynthia Ruchti - They Almost Always Come Home
J Flores - Stories from a Teacher

PT Michelle - Brightest Kind of Darkness
Miriam Minger - Twin Passions
Debby Conrad - Love, Lies, and High Heels
Kris Pearson - The Boat Builder's Bed
Heather Graham - The Gatekeepers

Belinda Boring - The Mystic Wolves
Kate Perry - Playing for Keeps
Heather MacAllister - Haunted Spouse
Shelly Crane - Collide
Gabriel ? - Dark Creations

Connie Mason - The Last Rogue
Leigh Greenwood - Pete
Kate Perry - Return To You
Dee Carney - Open Door Invitation
Mira Lyn Kelly - Waking Up Married

Elizabeth Sherry - Under the Aspens
Christina Tetreault - The Teacher's Billionaire
Claudy Conn - Runaway Heart
Rachel Astor - Bridemaid Lotto
Cali MacKay - The Highlander's Hope

Reeni Austin - Fresh Temptation
Danelle Harmon - The Wild One
Patricia Ryan - Hale's Point
Mandy M Roth - King, King, Goose?
KR Smith - Claimed

Anya Bast - OtherKin Fury
Kristen Ashley - Motorcycle Man
Alice Clayton - The Unidentified Redhead
Julia Crane - Consumed

Holy fuckanolis...that's 149 books!! I blew away my goal for the year...and I've only had my Kindle since February (gotta love free Kindle books). This is NOT counting the physical books that I read in 2012, of which I did not keep a list (they're all still at my bedside, though).

I'm definitely going to go back through and correct any spellings and unreadable names (can't reupload at

Here's hoping that she does it again this year (of course, I'll keep better track - linking and such) :)

Ms D
Be safe out there.