It's my last day of being super sedentary, LDs. Tomorrow, I begin the transformation.
Don't get me wrong, I KNOW it's not going to happen overnight, cause that would be weird.
It's going to take some hard work and some great friends cheering me on via here or facebook or tumblr or twitter or whatevs.
I'm going to be responsible for myself, because no matter how hard I try to be comfortable in my own skin, I'm not. Especially when my best friends and I take a picture, and it looks like I've eaten a VW Bus that's taking up residence in my ass.
No more.
I'm tired of defending myself to my family, mostly. I'm tired of not being able to run because my knees are horrible.
I'm tired of being fat.
Ms D
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Holy Assballs, Batman!
No, the title really has nothing to do with this post. I just logged in to see that I haven't done anything here since...JANUARY. Wow. RL has taken advantage of me.
However, I will say that this is one of my goals for August--blog more. It's still going to be a place where I muse about things (I've got a(nother) book in the works, and I'm hoping to have it rough draft finished by October), bitch, crafty stuffs, and the miscellaneous workings of my brain.
I will say that I'm going to try to keep track of some pretty body-specific things here...like a journal.
Because starting 1 August, I'm going to hit the pavement.
As in start exercising.
Because whilst I'm trying to be happy in my own skin, most of the time it doesn't work. My knees are shot, so I can't run. So I'm doing the Couch to 5K on my bike. I'm going to do it just like it says in the program, but I'm doing it on wheels instead.
Would anyone care to join me?
Be safe out there,
Ms D
However, I will say that this is one of my goals for August--blog more. It's still going to be a place where I muse about things (I've got a(nother) book in the works, and I'm hoping to have it rough draft finished by October), bitch, crafty stuffs, and the miscellaneous workings of my brain.
I will say that I'm going to try to keep track of some pretty body-specific things here...like a journal.
Because starting 1 August, I'm going to hit the pavement.
As in start exercising.
Because whilst I'm trying to be happy in my own skin, most of the time it doesn't work. My knees are shot, so I can't run. So I'm doing the Couch to 5K on my bike. I'm going to do it just like it says in the program, but I'm doing it on wheels instead.
Would anyone care to join me?
Be safe out there,
Ms D
Monday, January 16, 2012
I'm Back!
I generally try to be a happy person, and I uber-hate confrontations. But sometimes rainbows and fucking glitter have to take a backseat to fire and brimstone and the half-evil side of me coming out (Mr Realist thinks I need a 333 tattoo). It's why I'm romantically involved with Kisha. I save up some nuggets of brimstone and tongues of flame, and let them all go on Mondays. It's a perfect fucking day to bitch. Mondays suck most of the time.
~ My boss walked in today, after being in Vegas at a Licensing Show, and starts bitching. Gah - I was doing so well, Boss! Just let me do my work and we'll get it fixed! Besides, if you want all this shit done, I'm going to need some help.
~Mr Realist has a doctor's appointment on Thursday...to discuss what he has to do about his newly-discovered diabetes. He's pretty pissed at himself--he did say he's the one that let it get this far; just kept putting off getting healthier, and now it's come back to bite him in the ass.
~There's not much else to bitch about...so far...
I'm going to start doing this more often. :)
Ms D
Friday, January 13, 2012
Well...
I missed it. A couple of posties ago, it was my 250th post. Doesn't seem like that many, especially when there are those of you who blog every. day.
And are way supercooler than I could ever hope to be (Aunt Bex, anyone).
Anyway, I'm stealing this from the aforementioned auntie.
1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before? I submitted several things to Band Back Together. These were the most cathartic things I'd ever done.
2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Um, no, and no. My aspiration for this year is to lose 25 pounds by September. Think I can do it? Probably.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope (thank God). :)
4. Did anyone close to you die? Not close, but my Mumsy's husband died in August.
5. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011? A War Room out of the spare bedroom.
6. What countries did you visit? Do you mean places I didn't visit in my mind? None. Although, we are planning a October trip to the Riviera Maya...
7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? They all kinda blend together, LDs.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I became a beginner at sewing!
9. What was your biggest failure? Two cavaties. What the actual fuck.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Messed up my knees pretty badly playing softball...and I'll play again this year!
11. What was the best thing you bought? The new HD television. Fucking full of WIN! O, that, and the new kitchen table and chairs. ;)
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Husband - he got his blacksmith shop up. Now, for spring to get here so he can get out of my house and make me some stuffs!
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Kim Kardashian. Gays can't get married, but a 72-DAY marriage that was done for the money is ok? Again, what the actual fuck.
14. Where did most of your money go? Miscellaneous crap. Sigh.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? I'm in a book, LDs. Like an actual, paper and ink, bound book. "The Apocalypse of Enoch" comes out June 23rd, 2012. Get it. Read it. Love me.
16. What song will always remind you of 2011? "Last Friday Night" by Katy Perry.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier. My meds are in control and they're working like a champ!
ii. thinner or fatter? a smidgen fatter.
.iii. richer or poorer? the same - we make money, we spend money. evensies.
18. What do you wish you’d done more of? Knitting. Sewing. Cleaning.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Stress out about shit I have no earthly control over.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? “Thank God it’s over.”
21. There was no #21. I don’t know why there was no 21. O well.
22. Did you fall in love in 2011? Every day.
23. How many one-night stands? Only in my head with fictional characters.
24. What was your favorite TV program? New Girl - Zooey Deschanel cracks my shit up!
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?Nope.
26. What was the best book you read? Um...probably The Hunger Games.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Young the Giant. Check out "My Body" - it's good.
28. What did you want and get? A new watch.
30. What was your favorite film of this year? Hmmm...don't know. Tangled if we're counting ones that we just saw for the first time this year.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I turned 33; we were driving to Phoenix to watch Husband's brother graduate from MMI.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Losing weight?
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011? "Wear what you dig, and fuck the haters."
34. What kept you sane? You're under the assumption that I'm sane now.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Neil Patrick Harris. I will always fancy him, even though he's gay.
36. What political issue stirred you the most? I detest politics and politicians - they're all crooks.
37. Who did you miss? No one - I saw everyone
38. Who was the best new person you met? Ask again later.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011: Don't speed and swerve.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:(God, that seems so MySpace).I just, I can’t. I’m sorry, Meme. (yeah, leaving Aunt Bex's here).
And are way supercooler than I could ever hope to be (Aunt Bex, anyone).
Anyway, I'm stealing this from the aforementioned auntie.
1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before? I submitted several things to Band Back Together. These were the most cathartic things I'd ever done.
2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Um, no, and no. My aspiration for this year is to lose 25 pounds by September. Think I can do it? Probably.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope (thank God). :)
4. Did anyone close to you die? Not close, but my Mumsy's husband died in August.
5. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011? A War Room out of the spare bedroom.
6. What countries did you visit? Do you mean places I didn't visit in my mind? None. Although, we are planning a October trip to the Riviera Maya...
7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? They all kinda blend together, LDs.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I became a beginner at sewing!
9. What was your biggest failure? Two cavaties. What the actual fuck.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Messed up my knees pretty badly playing softball...and I'll play again this year!
11. What was the best thing you bought? The new HD television. Fucking full of WIN! O, that, and the new kitchen table and chairs. ;)
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Husband - he got his blacksmith shop up. Now, for spring to get here so he can get out of my house and make me some stuffs!
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Kim Kardashian. Gays can't get married, but a 72-DAY marriage that was done for the money is ok? Again, what the actual fuck.
14. Where did most of your money go? Miscellaneous crap. Sigh.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? I'm in a book, LDs. Like an actual, paper and ink, bound book. "The Apocalypse of Enoch" comes out June 23rd, 2012. Get it. Read it. Love me.
16. What song will always remind you of 2011? "Last Friday Night" by Katy Perry.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier. My meds are in control and they're working like a champ!
ii. thinner or fatter? a smidgen fatter.
.iii. richer or poorer? the same - we make money, we spend money. evensies.
18. What do you wish you’d done more of? Knitting. Sewing. Cleaning.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Stress out about shit I have no earthly control over.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? “Thank God it’s over.”
21. There was no #21. I don’t know why there was no 21. O well.
22. Did you fall in love in 2011? Every day.
23. How many one-night stands? Only in my head with fictional characters.
24. What was your favorite TV program? New Girl - Zooey Deschanel cracks my shit up!
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?Nope.
26. What was the best book you read? Um...probably The Hunger Games.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Young the Giant. Check out "My Body" - it's good.
28. What did you want and get? A new watch.
30. What was your favorite film of this year? Hmmm...don't know. Tangled if we're counting ones that we just saw for the first time this year.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I turned 33; we were driving to Phoenix to watch Husband's brother graduate from MMI.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Losing weight?
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011? "Wear what you dig, and fuck the haters."
34. What kept you sane? You're under the assumption that I'm sane now.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Neil Patrick Harris. I will always fancy him, even though he's gay.
36. What political issue stirred you the most? I detest politics and politicians - they're all crooks.
37. Who did you miss? No one - I saw everyone
38. Who was the best new person you met? Ask again later.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011: Don't speed and swerve.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:(God, that seems so MySpace).I just, I can’t. I’m sorry, Meme. (yeah, leaving Aunt Bex's here).
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
You know what? People just need to chill the fuck out about those of us who do not have children and do not want children.
There was an anonymous comment left to be moderated on one of my old posts about not having children. I was told that "you really don't know what love is until you have a child." Are you kidding me? So the love that I have for my husband and my family and my friends, that I would DIE for them, isn't enough? I deleted it, but the more I thought about it, the more irritated and angry it made me.
When did you become God and could love with every fibre of your being? You can't tell me that you've never had a cross thought about your kids (if you have them); if you tell me that, you're a liar.
How dare you presume to tell me that my life is not fulfilled enough - you have no idea who I am or what I'm about. There are days that I don't think my life is fulfilled...and it's not due to lack of children. ~I want to go back to school, study all kinds of things--that's what I'm missing.
~I haven't travelled enough - I want to see Europe, Canada, Australia/New Zealand, Egypt.
~I want to have my own space in the home I share with my husband--a place I can paint on the walls, hang posters, write, sing, relax, etc.
Yes, a couple of years ago, the husband and I were trying for kids. But the more it went on, the more discouraged we got, and we started weighing out the pros and cons of having them.
For us, the cons outweighed the pros, so we nixed the idea and just went back to being us.
Assholes.
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